The Brave Among Us

by Mike Barnicle
The Boston Globe, November 24, 1994

 

When the elevator door opened the other morning, this nurse was standing in the hospital corridor and in a single movement she reached -,out and yanked me off the lift. I wasn't even supposed to be there because I had been upstairs visiting an old golfer with a new hip but I have known her a hundred years and on the darkest day she manages to wear the brightest of faces.

   "Come with me," she ordered.

   "Where?" I wanted to know.

   "To meet some kids," she said, as she walked briskly down the hallway. "Put them in the paper so all these fools out there who think they're having a bad day when their car doesn't start or something will feel like dopes."

   We went into a room with a splendid view of the city. There, in a chair set beside a bed, a 9- year-old boy named Thomas was pasting a Ken Griffey Jr. sticker in a souvenir book.

He weighed maybe 40 pounds and wore a Seattle Mariners baseball cap on his bald head. IV tubes ran from a bottle hanging on an aluminum rack into the boy's right arm. His face was hollow from cancer treatments and his prognosis is far from promising but his eyes glistened with excitement as he talked about his favorite sport.

 

"I saw him play last summer," Thomas said, meaning Junior Griffey. "He was awesome. My Dad took me to Fenway Park. I had never been there before. Maybe next year if they play again I can go back. My Dad says we will anyway."

    A few doors down, Kathleen who is 8 and battered by bad blood cells was watching a cartoon on TV. She was a tiny girl made big by her bravery.

    "I can' t go home for Thanksgiving," Kathleen said, "but I'm going to try and go home for Christmas. Everybody's real nice here but I told my mom I'd sleep in my own bed for Christmas. That's what I want to do.”

 

    Too much of the world is filled with grief. And if it's not heartache that surrounds us, it is often heartlessness or the shortsighted who offend us with selfishness or greed.

     In so many cases, we are led by the dumb who are deaf to common sense and blind to what is truly important. Our politics have become one long, seemingly final, fraudulent act within a theater of the absurd as people who appear never to have been inside a church of any denomination are consumed now by school prayer when, in truth, the only thing they truly worship are election results and campaign contributions.

 

   Then, there are those among us who can cause the spirit to soar simply by listening and looking at them: The very young, cursed by grievous illness, the nurses who care for them, the doctors who treat them and the, parents who love them with a devotion that can not be defined.

    Yesterday, one of these noble young people finally made it home to Haverhill. Her name is Dottie Lessard. She is 27 years old and across all those years She lived with the definite calendar imposed by cystic fibrosis, until October 27 when she received a double-lung transplant in a 12-hour operation at Massachusetts General Hospital.

 

    My doctor called me at four in the morning and told me they had a donor," Dottie Lessard was saying. "I had been waiting for two years and seven months. That's how long I was on the organ donor list. I went right into the hospital. I wasn't scared at all. I was happy."

Twice during the operation, Dottie Lessard's heart failed. Twice, doctors brought her back. And today - Thanksgiving morning - her feelings are hard to match.

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"This is the first time in my life I can really breathe," she was saying. "It feels so weird to breath, to have lungs to do that. It's like a new life.

  

  "I can take a deep breath. I'm learning how to cough. I'm learning how to use my lungs. But how do you say thank you to the doctors who saved your life and how do you say thank you to the person who donated their lungs to me so I could live?"

Dottie Lessard was a friend of my little pal Joey O'Donnell who was claimed by cystic fibrosis eight years ago yesterday at the age of 12. After her operation, she drifted in and out of consciousness during a dicey period in Intensive Care.

     Joey was like my little brother," she pointed out. "And it was a weird feeling, hard to explain, but when I was in the ICU, he was there with me. I know he was there. I saw him. I think I was dying and he pushed me back."

   " I was talking to him and I know now he's OK, that he's in a really good, place," Dottie Lessard said. "He was there for me and he helped me live. Now I'm home for Thanksgiving and I know what it means to be grateful."